love?

tonight at spread midori and nao came. i am so glad. i also talked with each one of the boys tonight. not long conversations, mind you, but i was curteous if not friendly. i hope they knew they were loved tonight. i wrote in my journal last night and so some of my entries here are missing. i think that is okay. i have had NO classes today, which is a strange treat. i have none tomorrow either. i have just been doing laundry and dishes all day today, and watching movies. as i returned the other videos to Sunhome and got new ones i opened my eyes and realized that there is a church RIGHT beside it. i wonder if it is the church that the lady i met on the street goes to. if it is, there is an american pastor there. i am so curious! could i really have been so blind? so anyway, i have recently read a classic and to continue with the tradition, i got casablanca and gone with the wind. it makes me happy to be a woman, a real woman. not one who flaunts her pitiful excuse of love. all these girls, and boys too for that matter, prancing around as though they know what real love is. i only wish they could understand. may my life pursue the purpose of sharing the fact that love can be more than mere happy moments, and it doesnt mean that you have a husband that will do whatever he can to please you. ahh! silly dreams that these silly hollywood girls put into people's heads. may i always remember the love that has been shown to me.